Side effects

Fact #1:  None of you (especially my parents, who occasionally read this) need to know about my sex life
Fact #2:  Someone out there needs to talk about the impact of depression medication side effects.

During the first several months of our marriage, Dave wanted sex far more often than I did, and I know I left him feeling guilty and unwanted sometimes.  I felt sad about that, but it felt like it would just take so much work.

Now I'm grateful for that experience.  Somehow, it makes it easier now that the roles are reversed (and exaggerated).

It is a very lonely thing to not be able to make your husband want you.  No matter what you do.  Even though I know Dave loves me, even though I know that he thinks I'm beautiful, it is still lonely and painful to be unwanted in that way.  The side effect ebbs and wanes, but it is sad and lonely when it's here.