Change

Lots of change is happening in our family.  I find myself really reluctant to describe the changes, because I don't want there to be any pressure on Dave to have to continue or report on those changes.  So I'll just say that Dave's desk is getting cleared off, his stress at work is becoming manageable, and  even when things are really dark, they are never hopeless.

Reasons for slow blogging

My mom asked that I post something new, since we as a family have transitioned away from the pain of the previous post.  Chelsey is doing really well, and has retained all of her personality while becoming both more grateful and somewhat more assertive.  Her transition to a group home has been slightly sad for all of us, but on the whole has been positive.  We feel this is a good change for her, and we've already seen a lot of benefits and positive changes.

As that transition became more calm, peaceful, and resolved, my Dad wrote "I now have no energy for this blog, and very little of interest to say about CCH now that the problems are less salient".  He and I talked about how in the moment of crisis, the problems are pressing and it feels important to voice your experience and your insights, as well as to hear from others' insights and responses.  Once the crisis has passed and you can cope with ongoing concerns on your own, there isn't a lot of energy or interest in posting.

That's how I've been feeling lately.  Though the depression is ongoing, the crisis of the depression seems past.  Dave and I have learned a lot, and we've both learned how to cope, individually and in our relationship.  There are ongoing lessons to learn, but it doesn't feel like a crisis anymore.

I'm not saying goodbye to this blog, though, by any means.  This blog has been a lifeline to me when times were most hard, and I am not at all ready to let it go completely.  I want to keep writing about our transition, and I want to keep it available if there should be another crisis.  

I'm grateful for you readers of this blog, who have been part of my lifeline.